My Beloved Man

My beloved man, from the bottom of my heart I thank you for coming into my life. Today we cried together, I see you and I feel you… your heart is so pure and beautifully radiant, it moves me deeply… when you allow yourself to be vulnerable, my heart rejoices, because through this you are changing everything, and not only on a personal level. I see and feel immense masculine support, mutual understanding, and care. Each time I feel how we are closer to one another and how our shared love deepens. There is enormous strength in this… and I honestly bow to you and to all men who allow themselves to step into vulnerability, into the depth of their hearts. It is an amazing feeling to sense this. Thank you for holding all my emotional outpourings when I am not well and for holding space for me, and thank you also for accepting that sometimes I need to be alone with myself, it is important to me. And it is not always rosy… life tests us every moment, every day challenges and trials come, testing how firmly we stand, how grounded we are. Personally, I have gone through many deaths, dark nights of the soul, I have lived on the street completely without money, without a home in a foreign country, I have also many times been seriously "ill," suffering from deep depressions, panic attacks, and so on… After many years and all the hardships I lived through, I began to turn my attention inward, toward myself. Self-love and self-care have been my daily bread for many years, just like working with my shadows. I have no schools, seminars, or courses, my greatest training has been life itself. I integrated so much into my life… I released long-held guilt that I felt deep in my bones. Because of all this, you were able to come into my path, and so I thank you, my beloved, that we experience all the colors of the rainbow together… we dance, sing, pray, rejoice like little children… we also create the future together and lay foundations for the next generations… our children… it is a force greater than us, and it fills me with love, joy, and gratitude.